Reclaiming What’s Mine

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Toady I took back my run. If you had asked me a year ago what I loved, I would have said “I love to run,” without hesitation, but I lost that. I lost my run. I could run, but I just didn’t want to. I guess you could call it my mojo, but why?

You see, 288 days ago, I ran a marathon & it stole my love of running. I trained… I ran… I ran a lot… and I burned myself out. For the past 9 months, I’ve tried to run. I’ve gone fast, slow, and everywhere in between but it just didn’t work. I had no idea what it would take to get my run back. Maybe I would just quit being a runner.

So much of what I have been over the last 7 years has been partially defined by calling myself a runner. Could I really be OK with changing that? Could I just quit? Would I have to put away the medals, the running bibs, the car magnets? No. I just couldn’t do it, so…

I went. No expectations. No time or
distance. I ran. I stopped to enjoy the world around me. I high-fived tree leaves, I took in the beauty around me, I listened to my body, I may have even shed a few tears (sometimes I cry when I run… the sun makes my eyes water). I ran, uphill, downhill, I even spread my wings, kicked up my heels and ran fast downhill and closed my eyes for just a second. And I felt alive.

When all was said and done, I knew I was back. How far & how fast didn’t matter. All I could think about was when I would run next. (Those of you who are runners understand.) I am a runner. See you on the road.

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My Journey

So, a lot of you see where I am & may ask how I came to be here.  What changed?  Where did I get the motivation, the drive?  Well, here’s my story.  

In 2010, I ran my first 5K.  I started doing yoga & running a few months before that to “cure” my sick stomach.  It started working but I had set backs…lots of them.  If you want to know more about me being a runner, check out my previous post “If I Can…You Can.”  Since then, I have run nine 5K’s & one 10K.  I plan to do as many as I can this year.SANYO DIGITAL CAMERA

I keep these on my wall as a reminder of what I can do.  

Running was a start, but my real, hardcore journey began the Christmas of 2010.  It’s the year that I was given “Jillian Michaels 30 Day Shred” & a set of 1lb hand weights.  (Those aren’t the weights in the picture.  Those are York Peppermint Patties which I was also very pleased about.)

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I started working out daily on January 1st, 2011.  I alternated between Jillian & yoga.  Sometimes I would go for a run, but 20 minutes in my living room was a lot more convenient.  By the end of January, I had dropped 15 lbs & 12 inches.  Talk about motivation.  I continued to work hard…losing inches but not weight.  I loved the way I was feeling & looking.  I knew I was getting stronger in every way possible.  

From day one until now, I have lost a total of 21 5/8 inches.  I am still only about 15 – 20 lbs lighter, but that’s exactly where I need to be.  It also goes to show that the scale is not a good measure of success.  I still work out daily.  I just can’t make myself take a rest day & my body doesn’t like it when I do.  So, here from start to present are my before & afters:

SANYO DIGITAL CAMERALeft is January 2011…middle is January 2012…right is now, January 2013.

I haven’t made major gains in appearance in the last year, but I can feel myself getting stronger all the time.  Just to share a little more with you and prove that you don’t need the gym or fancy equipment, here is my home gym.


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I never have time to get bored with a workout, because there is always something different that I can do.  I guess you can tell that Jillian is my favorite.  What can I say?  She’s effective & most of the workouts are 30 minutes or less.  

 Now, I must say that I eat very healthy almost all of the time & am now a vegan, but that takes time as well.  Cut out the junk & you’re on the right track for starters.  

Let me just finish by saying…I did it, and you can too.  Just think about why you’re doing it.  Do it for yourself…not anyone else.  Be strong & seek support when you need it.  I’m always willing to answer questions or give you a kick in the rear if you need.

Lastly, I must thank Kevin.  He is the one who gave me the first Jillian dvd & the weights.  Now he puts up with all my crazy workouts every single day.  Thank you Kevin for all the support & encouragement you give me.  I love you!

Now…get off your butt & work out people. 🙂

If I Can…You Can!

There was a time in my life not so long ago when “can’t” was something I often said.  I was never the girl who wanted to do exceptional things…I couldn’t.  For what has now been almost 2 years, I have been that girl.  Yesterday I ran my first 10K and finished in 49 minutes 46 seconds.  It won’t be my last.

As a child, I always just knew that I wasn’t athletic…so I didn’t try to be.  I couldn’t throw or catch a ball (still can’t).  No sport was a fit for me, so I accepted it.  If you had asked me 5 years ago to go for a run…I would have laughed and told you I’d be out of breath before we made it to the end of the block (it was true).

I’m not sure when or why it happened, but one day it was like a switch was flipped on inside me.  I knew that I had to do more…that I could do more.  I started small.  I set a goal…and I ran.  I know it’s cliche, but I put one foot in front of the other and just went for it.  Day 1, I made it down the road before I walked.  The next time it was farther…and then farther still.  I remember the first day I ran the whole way.  It was slow and I’m pretty sure I almost died, but the feeling inside was amazing.  Me…the girl who couldn’t…I just did it!  I ran!  I set a goal & met it.

From that day on, my life has been different.  I changed that inner voice from “can’t” to “why not?”  If I try and fail, I’ll just try harder the next time.  I will never stop.  I don’t give up…I just try again and again and again until I get it right.  It’s not just about running…it’s about all of life.  

“The greatest calamity is not to have failed, but to have failed to try.” 

So, I say to you, “If I can…You can!”  Just go for it…give it your all…and be proud of yourself just for trying.

The Uphill Climb

Some days are better than others when it comes to running.  I took the time today to push myself…all the while, thinking about what great metaphors coincide with running.  I ran at Clifty Falls today…up & down, up & down…and so on.  I began thinking to myself about how easy it is to run downhill, but if you want the ease of the downhill, you must be ready for the uphill climb that follows in running & in life.  How hard are you willing to push?  If you let yourself go downhill, at some point you will find yourself trying to get back to the top.   So, I came to the conclusion that the faster I go, the sooner I reach the top.  If I take my time, the climb is far more painful.  When you hit that dip in the road, or a valley in life…don’t crawl out of it…don’t straggle…just run hard & fast up that hill that follows.  The satisfaction of reaching the top is worth it.  Work for it, earn it & then take pride in what you’ve accomplished.